staying at hm these 2 days..
hmm..abit sian..gt nthing to do..


i miss u...


went out with my poly clique 2nite 2 celebrate cheryl bday..
been so long since we all gather tgt..haha..
enjoyed hanging out with them..thx guys..
love ur lots=)
hmm..raining outside nw..
lyk to hear the rain pouring..
feel lyk gg 4 a run in e rain..will b so shiok man..
if only the rain can wash away everything..


anybody wan 2 drink with me??
i dun wan2 drink alone..


today, i had a happy time wrking..
haha..guess y?cos....
there is a some1 who i love to max wrking too..
STEVEN SAN!! he is so so funny de la..
after a long day of wrk..was actually very tire liao..
bt he was so dann funny tt make me laugh til i forget e tireness..
haha..with him ard..u will nvr feel tire n boring..
he will give u little encouragment when u r dann tiring..
n crack jokes to brighten ur mood..
n he is jus so caring n xi xin towards us..
lol..reali enjoyed wrking with him..so lucky to haf him s my supervisor..
haha..tml oso wrking with him..n yi jie is baq..
guess i will haf a very fun tym wrking tml nite..=)
n after tml..i haf 5 days to rest.. 5 days lei!! lol..



'等我回来说爱你'...


i tot i'm already used to it..
bt i realise actually i'm nt..
i'm jus running away from it..
watched P.S. I LOVE YOU 2day..
a 2 hrs show..quite long huh..
is a very touching show..
oh ya..watched with hn,bell n dg..
very long didnt meet up with them le..
had dinner at subway..stil at s nice s b4..
tml wrking..k..shall end here..nitex..


P.S. I LOVE U


i cut my hair le..
tire of my long hair liao..so cut it away..
tml..i dun wan2 stay at hm..bt no1 can pei me go out..haiz..sian..
nvm la..i find something to do myself..


i'm feeling so so bad nw..
i jus cant control my tears..
i...shldnt b lyk tt..
shldnt


it hurts when it beat..
i rather it dun beat..


i dun noe hw to handle this anymore..
emotions getting out of control..
any1 out there can help me??
any1 can make my heart stop beating..
i noe nobody can except myself..
y am i asking this funny qn..


off today!!=)
went out with ru,my sis n amanda to eat pizza hut 2day..
after tt meet hongda n fen 4 dinner..ya..eat agn..
eating is my main activity 2day..haha..
tml nd 2 go baq wrk le..sian..


i'm holding u as my world...


played mj n blackjack for e whole mite last nite..
all e way from 12am to 8 am this morning..
dann tire..fun??k la..quite ba..if my papa wasnt playing..
n here..i mus thx steven san..i love u 2 e max man..
y r u so nice n gd ar..lol..think i'm siao le..
dun get me wrong ar..nt tt kind of love la..
bt he is reali a gd guy..this kind of guy gg to extinct liao le..
so girls..dun wait liao..haha..lucky steven san dun noe my blog..
if nt sure kena him kill..lol..
my head is spinning rite nw..due to nt enough slp..
walk oso cant walk str..like drunk lyk tt..
so lousy la me..
tml off..who wan 2 spend e day with me?? haha..
i dun wan 2 stay at hm n rot..


wrk halfday today..
den went shopping with my sis..
bought quite alot of things..bt all nt my $$..
haha=) thx u ting ting..
watch ah long with ru n sis oso..
funny la the show..bt is a pity tt all e 3 of us r separated fr each other..
if nt i guess it will b more funny..cos can laugh tgt ma..lol..
back to wrk tml agn..n it will b morning til nite everyday all e way til sun..
sian..think mon i will spent the whole day at hm slping..haha..


it cum baq 2 jus another day...


wrking night shift today..
was quite busy cos gt nt enough ppl..
tml wrking split shift..
n i'm e only part timer tml..
so..sian sian sian...
anyway..is jus another day n it will b over very soon..


gt a few days didnt blog le..
hmm..today is wen bday..
so HAPPY BDAY HUI WEN!!
wish everything goes well for u..
haha..dun noe wat to write le..
shall stop here..


is the numbness i feel..


Happy chinese new year!!!
haha..this yr my reunion dinner is abit special..
cos others than my family members..we've gt ru,ni n fen to join us..
haha..7 ppl tis yr..noiser n merrier!! =)
so happy to have them with us this yr..
hope our friendship last long long long..lol
n thx fen for listening to me..
love u lots la=D
n yeah..chinese new yr is here..
gt days off..nice food,ang bao,gathering..blah blah blah..
i think i shld b happy eh..


i miss you..
reali miss u alot alot..
i dun noe hw to stop missing u..
i dun noe hw to control myself to stop thinking of u..
all i can do is to sit down here n cry..
until e tears dried up..
is lyk a cycle..repeating over n over agn..


想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛　连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛


wrking halfday 2day..
den meet up with fen n hongda 2 celebrate hongda bday..
haha..hongda say he was happy n touch..lol..
i ate alot 2day..went secret receipe den eat hk kim gary..
was super full la..lol..
after dinner,we watch a movie call 'The Mist'
ok..it is a gd gd show..cos it manage to traumatize(spell correctly?) me..
i nearly gt a mental breakdown n wanted to leave e cinema halfway thr e show..
felt super stressful watching tt show..bt it reali make ppl think..
humans can b so ugly n selfish..
sometym is nt the creatures who r scary..humans r den e scary 1..
wonder if i will haf nightmare ltr...haha..
hmm..wanted to say thx to fen n da 4 being my friends..
they brighten up my day..i was feeling dann tire n moody this morning..
until i meet up with them..n thx fen 4 calling me to check whether i reach hm le ma..
although is jus a simple action,bt it touches me alot..=)
k..i noe is over le..bt still..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HONGDA!!!=D


was out e whole day today..went mummy hse in e afternoon to take things..
den end up staying there for more than an hr talking..lol..
after tt went to meet sb n ru sing k..
wen joined us ltr..den after k..
meet ly n les at jumbo 4 dinner.
hmm..the food is quite nice..lyk e fish n yam paste esp..
except 4 e crab..they say is very nice la..
bt i think ok ok only lei..n is super ma fan to eat la..
mayb is bcos i dun noe hw to eat ba..haha..
den after e dinner..i went baq to orchard 2 meet muackies..
nw i jus reach hm..tire..
tml wil b another busy day ba..
wrking half day den meeting fen they all 2 celebrate hd bday..
k la..gg to slp le..nitex!=)


no matter hw occupied i m..
u nvr leave my mind..
i jus miss u alot alot..


mus u always scold?? cant u jus talk nicely..
dun u noe tt s long s u talk nicely n we will listen..
mus u always shout n shout n shout..
sis jus make a mistake by telling u a wrong timing..n hai u haf to wake up early n make breakfast 4 her..
tt hai u cant go the 900plus to drink ur coffee..n haf to go to another coffee shop 2 drink..
do u haf to shout n throw things jus bcos of this..
do u noe tt we hate scolding super much..even when sis gt an off ytd,she rather acc me to wrk 4 e whole day than having to staying at hm with u..reason is simple..cos she dun wan to hear ur scolding..
dun say tt we dun appreciate wat u do..we do..i no0e is very nice of u to get up early n make breakfast for us..
bt there is how many times u scold us over this?? u ask urself..i dun even rmb..n whenever u scold us over others things..u will always bring out tt fact tt u make breakfast for us..u o this n tt for us..n u r reali a super gd father n tt we shld nt talk back..n make u angry...
ya..we r nt allow to talk back..cos everything u say are all dann dann right..everything..we r always at e bloody hell wrong side..gt no choice bt to kp our mouth shut n listen to ur scolding n look at u start banging n throwing things ya..
so wat tt u make breakfast 4 us..so wat if u wash our clothes n cook 4 us..so wat???
ya..is very unfilia 4 me 2 say so..he doesnt haf to do all this 4 me..
bt if u dun do these,den wat haf u done s a part of being my father??
scolding n beating??
u r a man..n u r nt earning money..nt even a single cents..all u do is stretch out ur hand n take $$ for mother..u always say tt we r nt listening..we spend alot of money..we r nt helping mother to leesen her burden..the living fees is now so high n we stil so bu dong shi..wtf..u noe hw to say all these things..n u r nt doing anything to help mum to lessen the burden..dun ever use the excuse tt u need to take care of me n sis..u ever ask whether we nd u to take care??
y nt u ask nw..n i will tell u tt NO..WE DUN ND!!!! we r old enough to take care of ourseleves..we can wash our own clothes,make our own breakfast n even help u with hsewrk..tt is our responsibility..if only u r out to WRK! n ur responsibility is EARN MONEY!!
hw many yrs le?? 18?? u haf nt been wrking..all u do is to stay at hm..do abit of hsewrk here n there n den sit down infront of the tv n watch til u fall asleep..rite?
dun noe y u haf tt thick skin to take money from a woman who is wrking so hard outside..everyday from 6-11..n u take this money n claim tt is ur money n u can even use it to buy a fish 4 $1700..i look down on u..u r a failure s a man..s a husband..
u didnt marry a woman n expect her to feed u..u r e 1 who r suppose to earn n feed her..n u stil dare to scold her..n shout at her..jus bcos she bought the wrong kind of vegetables..who the hell u think u r..bet u nvr noe hw much mum regret in marrying u..
n hw much i dislike u..u gt no right to scold me over wat i spend..tt is the money i EARN myself..n nt taking from mum n claim tt is mine..u gt NO right at all!! do u hear tt!!
only mum have e right to scold me..n i only feel sry to her..n NOT TO U!!!!
cos in this family..ONLY u r nt earning any money to help..n ONLY u r scolding n shouting n throwing ur stupid temper..
i noe we cldnt talk back..all we can do is to shut up n listen..everyone in e family noes it..cos u make urself the king..u think u r..NO..u r nt..
dun ever 1 day let me explode n shout back at u..these words i nvr say it to u b4..i nvr tell u hw much i hated u..hw useless u actually r..everybody give in to u..cos mum loves u..n i stil respect u s my dad..
dun make me lose tt respect..stop scolding will u..
cant we haf peace at hm..can u pls make me love to stay at hm..rather than staying out late outside jus bcos i dun wan to cum hm..i beg u...
n stop scolding sis jus bcos she is gd to bully..n listen to watever u say n nvr talk back..she is jus tolerating..she nvr cry easily..n everytime u scld her..i saw tears on her face..do u nvr noe tt..u r hurting her..
if u like choping our head head so much..wanted us to die so much..den by all means..my head is here 4 u to chop..my life is here 4 u to take..bt dun u ever touch my sis n mum..i will die with u..
argh!!!!!!!!

sry guys tt ur haf to read this post..i gt no whr to vent my anger so i post ot here..sry..