tell me..
tell me wat can i do to stop my tears falling..
tell me wat can i do to stop e pain n hurt..
tell me wat to do...wat can i do..
rubbish..talking rubbish agn..


4am in e morning..i jus reached hm..
went 2 sing k..bt i had 2 leave 1st cos i cant stay overnite..
i enjoyed e singing n luffing with them..
enjoyed e supper with steven san n all of my dear collegues+friends..
bt i dun feel happy..
i might enjoyed all e things i done..i can laugh s loud s i can..
can b s crazy s i wan..do all e things tt i like..
yet my heart dun feel e happy feeling..so funny rite..
dun noe wat i'm talking..haha..i dun noe myself too..
jus typing in wat i'm thinking nw..even it doesnt make sense..
4 e whole nite..my thoughts r all u..
is u..u...n u..
haha..i'm luffing at myself..
stupid...
there's nthing i can do...



u..u..n u..


another time..
same qn..diff ppl..
affected..ya..i admit..i'm very affected..
it still haf e super power to make me cry..


today is gd friday...
wrking at ton today..split shift..
which means i earn alot 2day..since it is a ph..
but......is nt a gd friday..
today was busy like hell..leg almost break la..
n 1 whole day i had 2 face some1 i dun lyk..
i miss steven san la..went to find him during our break..
he cut his hair le..n he was wearing a long sleeve shirt with tie..
was lyk wow..when i saw him..look so different..
more man n bcum so shuai liao..haha..he bcum my idol liao..
haha..steven san..i love u!! muacks=) lol..
haiz..bt he is nt with us anymore..haiz haiz haiz..


today is steven san last day..
n i didnt haf any shift today..
but....we stillwent out tgt after his wrk..
we went to play pool..
n it was dann dann fun 2day..
gt qi,me him n ru..ru even give us her 1st time today lei..
haha..i mean 1st time play pool la...
n they were so so funny until i laughed until stomach ache..
den after playing 4 dun noe hw many hrs we left bcos my stomach is grumbling le..
went hk cafe to haf our dinner..n tt guy s usual pay e bill 4 us..
haha..bt we manage 2 return him e $$ after some pushing n snatching..lol..
haiz..watching him left..i nearly cried..noe i'm gg 2 miss him alot 4 sure..
he is such a gd supervisor..super super extremely gd de..
but...he is leaving us..no more jia you when i;m tire..
no more joke when i feel sian..
no more looking forward to wrk in ton..
gg 2 face tt tracy more..n this is so sian sian sian..
bt thinking from e other pt of view..it mayb gd 4 him to transfer..
i wish he will be more happy wrking in e new place..
hopefully 1 fine day i will hear e news of him transfering him baq 2 taka ton..
i will b dann happy de la..
haiz..steven san..i'll miss u de..wish u all e best=)
thx 4 everything=)
tml i haf a paper..n i haven started studying..
sian..hopefully i can study finish everything by tml..
give me some miracle pls..


it is nt a joke..
he is leaving le...
sad sad n sad..
it reminds me of e time when u r leaving..
letting go..
is gonna 2 b the thing i nvr learned hw 2 in life..
haiz..
i noe i'm gg to miss him alot...


ok..i'm here 2 appologise 2 the person i scolded in e previous post..
very sry tt i yuan wang u..
bt i didnt did it on purpose de..
is all bcos of some1...who play a prank on us n hai us wu hui u..
hai me cry 4 nthing..wa lao eh..rmb la u..
lucky u dunnoe i cried..if nt so paisei..
the who ar..u better dun go tell hor..
if nt u bear e consequences urself ar..
haha..bt i'm nt angry la..
cos god had heard my prayer..
it is reali a joke..=)
lucky man..


i'm very sad..reali very very sad..
argh..y like tt..y y y????
i dun understand..
no matter hw much we dun wan it to happen..
it will still happen n we can only accept..
y is it tt bad ppl get their ways n gd 1 cant..
is all bcos of e small ppl out there..
n i nvr ever hate somebody so much lyk i hate tt bitch..
wa liao eh..dann angry..stupid ugly bitch..
i noe i'm being very bad to scold her lyk tt when she did me nthing wrong..
but but but 4 sum reason i jus hate her!!!!
old witch..argh!!! who do u think u r..
1 day u r gg to get ur retribution..dun think all ur days r gg 2 b gd..
argh!!!!ta ma de..
=( =( =(...
can some1 tell me i'm dreaming..
tell me e new i heard is a joke..pls...
i dun wan dun wan dun wan!!!!
i cant help crying la..
i reali dun wan tis to happen..
god..can u hear my prayer??
=(


我想哭。。很大声很大声的哭。。
可是，我哭不出来。。


i'm still sick...argh..been sick for e past 1 wk plus le..
when will i get better??haiz..
today is 10th march..1 yr ago..is e worst day i n my life..
1 yr ltr..it still nt getting anyway beeter..
i wan to say..i miss u...miss u lots n lots n lots..
bt......haiz..my misses is always link with all e buts..
haiz..haiz..haiz..


went out with muackies ytd..
cos hong u is baq!!
haha..we went to eat tonkichi n after tt went shopping..
1st tym i acc men shopping ar..
hmm..kinda of boring..lol
bt ok la..gt moon acc me..
den we went cafe cartel 4 supper..
den cab hm..hmm..
dun noe when is e next tym meeting them..
haf to go wrk ltr..been 2 or 3 wks i last wrk at ton le..
haha..bt heng 4 me..tonight steven is wrking..=)
haiz..reali dun lyk staying at hm..
reali hate to hear them quarrel..actually oso nt quarrel la..
cos only papa is scolding..
sian sian sian..


today..i finally gt e chance to play mj le..
so happy de la..
n b4 mj,went to eat japan village with ximei,ru,n ting..
yum yum..i wanted to eat very long ago le..
den after mj went to meet fen n koh li..
ytd was jus saying i miss fen..
n den i receive her call 2day!! she is baq!!
haha...meet them 4 dinner at e new 'hingkong' cafe at jp..
hmm..their service was super gd..bt the food was only ok ok la..
haha..bt nvm..had a fun time chatting with them..
after e dinner,hongda cum n meet us n we go drinking..
oh ya..wanted to tell hongda..cheer up k?=)
mus enjoy ur life nw b4 u go NS wor..
n talking abt NS..hong you is baq tml!!
2 wks nvr contact le can..n we r meeting tml..
haha..so happy..fen is baq n hongu oso..=)
n yeah..thx ximei..4 taking my shift tml so tt i can go out with them..
thx thx=)
hmm..been slacking lately..haven been wrking alot..n $$ kp gg out..
bt lucky ting is at hm nw to pei me..
i only lyk to stay at hm when she is at hm..haha..
k la..shall stop here..bb=)


wrking for e past 2 days after 2 whole wks of rest..
hmm..tml rotting at hm agn..
n i'm still coughing n sneezing..
haiz..n ya..i'm missing ar fen..
when will u b baq ar??
cum baq le rmb to contact me k..
k ba..shall stop here le..
gdnite=)


i watched 2 great movie today!!
L changes the world & The leap years..
n wow..i fell in love in L after i watched the movie..L was a hero man..
so cute n so shuai de..=)
sry Kira..i shifted my love for u to L le..haha..
i wan2 watch the movie agn=)
The leap years was also very nice n romantic..
is 4 ppl who believe in fate..hmm..
haha..so ppl..go watch this 2 movies..
u wont regret it...=)


"i used 3 words,to sum up everything i've learnt in life..
it goes on..."


went sentosa ytd with my jo,dg n hn..
actually there shld b 7 ppl gg de..bt in e end left e 4 of us..
sian 1/2 la..bt it is stil fun=)
haha..after tt we went vivo 2 celebrate dg bday..
bt we didnt manage 2 surprise him..=(
nvm..we shall try harder next yr..lol..
after i came hm last night..i fall sick agn..
super hate to b sick..argh..


haiz..i do nt haf a choice..


sick 4 e past 2 days..
lying on e bed most of e times..
e fever is gone..bt i'm coughing lyk mad nw..
still..i went for my cousin de wedding jus nw..
super tire de..

hey..i wan2 say thx for ur care n concern..
say truly..i'm abit touch..
thx=)