ytd was fun...
today was a disater...
cos i'm sick...
reali hate to b sick...
cant do anything..
hope tml will b a better day..


merry christmas!!

countdown at esplanade last night..

stayed til the morning..

fun!

times reali files...

things changes,

bt memories stayed...

wanted to grab something.
bt i dun noe wat is it that i reali want..

hiaz..

i'm reali scare...

outing with muackies ytd=)
fun fun n fun...
we went out to celebrate candy,azen n my bday cum christams..
haha..this is wat we will do at this tym of the yr...
we had hotpot ytd...although the restuarant service sucks..bt we stil enjoyed ourselves..
their food oso nt bad la...esp their vege..haha...my stomach was full of vege ytd...
after that we went esplande there n camwhore..
been so long since we take pics...so we take n take n take non stop..lol..
muackies,i reali love ur alot alot...
thx 4 listening to me last night...felt so much better after telling ur everything..
friends forever=)




i wish the dream was real...
i wake up crying..

something is fading away slowly....
bt something is gg to stay forever...


omg!!!!
i'm reali shocked...
n argh!!!!
i cant connect 2 the internet using my desktop...
super irritated la...
n haiz...
i'm sry that i din inform things earlier...


argh..
super irritated with my msn de virus...
=(


the bbq was over...
it was fun..i get to c many of my classmate i haven seen 4 very long time..
bt it reali burn a super big hole in my pocket...lol..
thanks every1 for coming...



i ask myself...
this tym..i was sure..


i hope it is only gg to b better....
i'm nt perfect..
bt i wil do watever i can do..
i hope...i reali reali hope....


all i wanted nw is to disappear...
i'm gg to leave those empty...
i think i forgotten the way 2 cry..
even i very much wanted to...




perhaps i reali shld...
what is it that is holding me baq...


no more problems from me anymore...
the price is too high to pay...
is either gg to b this way or that..
i nd a break...


everything was my fault....


i wanna break away from here..
i'm trapping myself...
probably is my problem...nthing is right at this moment..
everything was so mess up...
i wish i haf the magic power to let everything fall into place...
i wanted others understanding, bt i wasnt understanding towards the others...
i hate to disappoint the 1 who cares, bt i'm doing it over n over agn...
nw even i wanted to say dun believe me anymore...i dun even trust myself...
hate hurting the 1 i love....how many chances do i haf...
eventually when the chances are used up, i wil lost my loves...
i'm tired..i hope i will do better this time..


the emptiness that nvr seems to disappear..
the emptiness that seems to b controlling me...
the actions that i cldnt explain...
the feelings that i dun understand..
the me that i hate....


mayb i shld think on a brighter side..
mayb i shld learn to take things easy...
mayb i shldnt b so stuborn..
bt..
i'm sad...
i'm frustrated..
i'm nt happy..

i reali hate listening to these over n over agn...
sick n tire of hearing all those...
can i haf a choice...i wanted to say NO..
i jus wan to stay here...
i'm sry for my bad temper...


my mind is in a mess now....
i reali nd some time to sort it out...


this is my1st dec post...
i cldnt slp...haiz...agn...
i'm wrking tml...n i'm stil awake...
guess i will fell asleep in the shop tml agn...

cant find a word to describe what i'm feeling nw...
sucky?? hmm...
ok..i'm gg to believe tml wil be a better day...



you r on my heart like a tatoo....