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The beautiful story of hers ;

Monday, February 27, 2012 ( 1:32:00 AM )

Was feeling very tire the whole day.

even I had managed to fell asleep last morning, it wasn't a good sleep.

I couldn't shut that scene out. The fear stays even things are over.

I ask myself, why do we hurt our love ones when we never wish to?

it's because our love got betrayed, and we couldn't take the betrayal.

so we hurt them, say nasty things about them, hate them, thinking all of these would make us feel better, we want to punish them.

The fact is that none of these make things better,maybe even worse. We still feel miserable after all,but the anger blinded us, it drives us to do things we are going to regret.

I saw that on my dad's face last night.I saw the regret in his eyes and the pain that replace the anger.

It pains me to see that.

I blame myself for not able to stop it from happening.I learnt a lesson last night. I couldn't just ignore everything. I was too selfish to just take care of my own feelings. My dad needed me, I got to be there for him even I hated it, I don't want to leave him alone.

As for my mum, I felt sad for her and I know she is afraid. I don't hate her, i'm not happy when she's hurt.

Because she has let me down so I just want to run away from her, but deep down, I wish she could love me like she did in the past, that she will protect me from getting hurt like what a mother would do, and give me a happy family I once had.

but my wish is never coming true,right?

Sunday, February 26, 2012 ( 3:23:00 AM )

The family dramas are really suffocating me.

if these were those tv series then tonight episode is the most exciting one.

and after everything, i couldn't sleep now even i'm really tire.

when i was cleaning the floor just now, I just wanted to run out of the house and cry my heart out.

I was scared,very scare.

Sunday, February 19, 2012 ( 3:25:00 PM )

nothing is right

sick and tired of it.

Saturday, February 18, 2012 ( 10:18:00 PM )

I'm going to need sometime alone again.

Thursday, February 16, 2012 ( 11:56:00 PM )

felt as though I have lost something.

( 1:00:00 AM )

Hope is the most beautiful thing in life.

Friday, February 10, 2012 ( 2:05:00 AM )

being self-discipline can help me do much better in life.

I certainly need it.