which is the deceiving one?



I miss my dad, everything of dad's.
Every single time is a fresh wound.



Everything in life seems to be falling back in place now.
I have moved in to stay with my besties, no longer fear in the middle of the night.
I'm starting to see the day which I cleared all my debts.
I found something to work for and dreams to realise.
I have all my good friends with me and a good bf.
I strongly believe no one will stay in the dark forever, not if you wanted the light bad enough.



I don't want to make it any harder, I knew it had to go.
That was magical, but that's only so much I could have.




Back from Tioman, and I missed everything there.
The warm Sun, clear sea, blue sky, sandy beach and fresh air. Everything there is so wonderful.
Especially the slow pacing life there, I cant find any stress there, only peace. Not forgetting the great companion. Nothing goes wrong with my lovelies around. Simply love them. :)


There is so much I want to say to my father, so many things I still want to do with him. Dad, I wish I was sitting beside you on the sofa at home right now,chewing on the food you cooked.I keep replaying the scenario in my mind but I would never have the cha nce again. It is hurtso much.


Every single word that comes through your mouth is a lie.
I don't understand. Why are you lying all the time. I had enough, it's really making me sick to the core. I firgured I need to let go of certain things, not for anyone but myself. I will never be freed if I don't let it go.

 Believing in myself.


It's very depressing to see things turn out this way. Years of friendship, yet it's so fragile. We talked about unbreakable bond, ever lasting love, friends forever, but how many of these really happen?
These are unrealistic promises,never to believe in them. It takes years to build a relationship and trust, and sometimes a misunderstanding, an expectation, a moment of anger kills it all. Now, I would just have to accept these changes. This is life.