Hapiness can be really really easy.
Seeing the smiles on my love ones faces is more than happiness.
Their cheerful tone and laughter always make my day.
My dearest sister, I want to say that you are amazing. I know how hard it is to open up yourself, just don't ever lose faith in this.
I love you so so so much.
:)



It's not easy to let go when you are hurt.
I know forgiving means able to accept her into my life again and love her like I did before.
As much as I wanted to, it isn't an easy task and she certainly didn't make it any easier for me.
I'm glad I don't hate her. I think I just need more time, I'm working hard to let the past go and see the good in you.
Sometimes, I envy the love and attention a child gets from their mum, but I know if dad were still around, I will get the same love and attention too, and now he is just in another place loving me in the same way. I'm never less blessed, I just miss dad very very much.



Patience is a virtue I lack. I'm always impulsive, determine to improve on this.
I used to drive myself to a corner with all my pessimistic thoughts, giving in to my fears and avoid problems. I was an unhappy person. I'm glad that I'm not that person anymore.
Life is full of adversities, but I believe nothing can bring me down unless I allow it to. It puts us through challenges but it never fail the strong minded and hopeful.
Dad was a role model for it. He was always strong and fearless. It was a legacy he left behind. If there is a next life, I still want to be my dad's daughter.
I miss you. dad.


Sometimes, remembering the good times is hard.
I couldn't think of the moments of happiness without recalling the pain that came after that.
And those moments would always find a way into my mind.





Redang is such a beautiful place.
I love its tranquility, and people there are all so friendly and welcoming.
Far away from the busy and stressful lifestyle.
I'd spent the whole afternoon lying on the beach, reading a book and not worry about a single thing.
It couldn't get any better.
However, the 9 hours bus trip was really exhausting. Luckily, It was worth it.
As serene as the island is, I couldn't get my mind to rest. I think I still need quite sometime to recover. It still hurts whenever I miss you.


想念是会呼吸的痛。



Sleepless night. Despite waking up early today, I couldn't get to sleep.
These 2 days wasn't easy. Everytime I go down the memory lane, It's like pouring salt over my wound. Painful.
Many of the nights, I would just lie on the bed and let the memories torture me till the morning. I wish you were here with me. I miss dad and I miss you.


I wish I'm sitting beside you, lying on your shoulder, talking about everything in life.



Today is an exhausting day. You never keep your promises. Everytime I put my trust in you, disappointments and frustrations follow. People expect us to understand her and never give up on her, they simply forget to expect her to give us warmth and love.
The whole argument was really mentally draining. I'm so glad a friend was there with me after that. Thank you fen for listening and caring. You are one such good friend.



I don't know what to think at this moment.
Honestly speaking, I can't bear to let you go, but I don't know where this is heading, I've got a bad feeling for it. Are we really not suitable for each other? I had hope things would eventually work out between us, for this I think I carried too many of the expectations, and on the other hand, it seems that I wasn't meeting your expectations list as well. I hate to leave things hanging, but I'm aware that you haven't settle down your thoughts and all I could do is wait. Most of the times, I just shut out everything, it's easier when I'm not thinking about this.
It's easy to fall in love, but to stay in love, it's much more challenging.


It was a tiring day.
supposed to be enjoying dinner with friends tonight, but that didn't happen.
I just couldn't lift my mood up.
I very much need my sleep right now, long day tmr.
Goodnight.