It's late, and I have to be up early tomorrow but I just can't get to sleep.
It's new year eve tomorrow, a day of reunion. Since young, it had always been one of the favourite day of mine. Yet, it seems meaningless now, or perhaps not, at least it will be a day well spent with sister. Festive occasion like this makes me miss dad even more. I remember how every new year eve's morning dad would be busy in the kitchen very early morning, the same old new year's songs that replay every year as background music. The usual dishes dad cooked every year which I have missed so so much, the laughters and those self praises from dad filling the air while we eat. Dad used to remind us to eat slow as long reunion dinner signify good luck. I will never have that again and I miss it so much that my heart wrench at the thought of it. Even though the last few years we had a 'poor' new year, I was happy. Those reunion dinners were one of the few meals or the only meal that the whole family sat down and eat together in that whole year. I wish dad had many more cny with us, I wish he had the chance to receive ang bao from me, I wish I had the chance to see the contended smile of his when his grandchildren are crowding around him for ang bao.


似乎很习惯在夜晚坐在椅子上对着窗外发呆，这一刻脑子里是空的，心却是沉沉的。我从来都是感情大于理智的人，但有时感情却是负担。所以慢慢我用理智去做选择，慢慢我不让脆弱的情感去影响我的生活。然后我发现我开心的时间多了，态度也不一样了，只是隐隐的觉得我好像遗失了一些很重要的东西。景物依旧，人事全非。有些事虽然过去了，也放下了，却仍在心里。有时不经意地想起然后又陷进回忆里去。一句话，一个语气，一首歌，一个地方，都可以翻起很多的思绪和思念。失去的，我找不回来，我惟有永远记在心里。


Back from phuket, the land with exciting activities, friendly people, awesome food and interesting nightlife. Although the beach which I had been looking forward too is disappointing but the great company make up for every drawback. Next trip Hong Kong and Langkawi! Holidays always fly like rocket, it's time to get back to work and study. Work hard and play hard, that, I call it life. :)


Happy 2014!
First entry of the new year. 2013 was great, it was a year filled with laughters, tears and love. I have many to thank for, and of cos, the first person is always my beloved sister. I love you, and this 3 words are already not enough to express my love for you. Thank you for being healthy and happy, that is the greatest gift to me. Thank you for sharing all my joys and sorrows with me, joy isn't joy if you weren't there to share and smile will never replace tears if you weren't there to listen. Even though I'm the older sister, but I learned many things from you, I respect and feel proud of you. Over the past year, I've seen many changes in you, more considerate, more loving, more lively, happier and wiser. I am so lucky to have you, mei mei!
The next two important people in my life are fenru and fenni. The both of you are like my family now. We grow together and witness the changes in one another. I'm so blessed to have you girls to stand by me in any circumstances, to love me for the person I am, to be there through all the small and big events in my life and to take care of me. I know I can always count on the both of you, I can be my true self in front of your and not be judge. Thank you for loving me, for forgiving me on my mistakes and everything else. Lets create more beautiful memories in the new year!
Huifen, I know you will be reading this. Thank you for all the care and love you shower me all these years. You have been a great great friend. You are brave and strong friend, and I am so proud of you. 16 years is just the beginning of our friendship, love you many many dear friend!
To hongda,diguang and soon bock, although they won't be reading this, they are important friends of mine. Hongda, you bring lots of laughters to my life, forever so happy and crappy. you have been an exceptional friend, thank you! You rock!
Diguang. I enjoy spending time with you, I always like to share everything around me with you, and I'm happier when you also share yours with me. Thank you for being such a good friend, for all the attentiveness and care.
Soon bock, you are the best kaki to everything, my K partner, mahjong buddy. I love bickering with you, love all your cuteness and uncle-ly actions. You are the best bro I can ever ask for, you never say much but I know you will always be there. Thank you bro!
Despite all the happiness, there were tears in 2013. I don't think you will be reading this,still I just wanted to say thank you for everything for the past 7 years. You were there during the hardest time of my life, you were there when I need a listening ear, you understand me and always not afraid to lecture me when I did something wrong. I know I have lost you for good, but I'm happy that you found someone meant for you, stay happy always. I miss you, friend.
Looking forward to the new year, wish everyone I love good healthy and an amazing year ahead!
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